sometimes i wonder if what i do and the words i say ever sink into my little ones heads...or even make it to their ears.
it has always been my heart's desire for my children to know God and to love Him with all of their heart, soul, mind, and strength.
this has to be my purpose. for each one of them. every choice, every decision, reflects that purpose.
that is the reason we choose to send our children to fresta valley christian school. school starts tomorrow. and tomorrow, while the kiddos are in school, i will be cooking dinner for a sweet friend of ours who is battling breast cancer.
brooke and i were talking about her in the car and the dinner i will be making for her, and the fun little "back-to-school" gifts we are going to give her kids, and how brooke picked her out a sweet card that says "jesus saves", a devotional book for her to read...
and brooke says to me, "mom, instead of going to school, why don't i just take care of people who are sick and have diseases?" oh. my. heart. in that moment, she GOT IT!
and at the same time, if my kids look to me, all they see is "conditional", like anger that flares up easily, patience that runs out fast, a love that fails them, unjustified frustrations, a body that gets tired, a mind that is forgetful...
i have to point them to Him.
i will always fail them. no matter how hard i try.
but Jesus never will. His love never fails. His grace has no limits. His mercies are new each morning. He never grows weak or weary. He is SO good.
and He "maketh our cup runneth over" if we will only ask Him to.
so i'm asking, Lord, renew my purpose.
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